Dear Father

I'm ready to fully commit to u now, so take my life under your arms
And let me fly away with u, I'm calling only on your name, my one and only saviour
I'm tired of giving myself false hope, I want my hope to be in u now
I'm tired of feeling so lonely inside, and I'm tired of reality striking down on me
I want, no I NEED u to hold my hand, and I need u to be my comfort now
So just take this tired soul and break me just so u can make me,
For the better of your kingdom

Amen

Music and Lyrics

ever since i was a tyke, i'd grip the mic
hold it tight, i would never let it go
i would never let it out of sight
i got mad love for it,
but i aint never hesitant to ever put my hands on it
ironically im so gentle when im spittin
on a higher level, past the devil
but not quite heaven lifted
hater im so sick, aint no medicine can remedy
im so blessed with this gift, so this illness aint temporary
yeah they fill this, my flow colder than february
gotta make it in this game by all means neccessary
trynna get attention, like papparazi camera's flaring
i aint letting, nobody stare me down
only one can scare me, is the man wearing the crown
and with that said, i aint listen to u clowns
let me introduce u to this new sound and

YES YES Y'ALL

been a while since i wrote here but w.e.

k well, i gotta get somethings off my chest here
frick why are u still on my mind? like seriously
the moment i think im over u, u creep right back into my mind
this isnt fair for neither of us, maaaan im retarded for how i feel about u
i screwed things up, and after all is said and done, i still think we can work something out? seriously i think someone needs to punch me square in the face
things was straight and now your back on my mind more than ever, u haunt my every thought, my every action, this isnt fair i shouldnt be feeling this way
cause it's simply just not right!

Summer 09

......is not what i expected it to be :(

Alone - Asher Roth

yeah i've been in a weird ass mood all week
idk what it is but lately i've been feeling blue
dont ask why! cause quite frankly idk why! BAHHAHAHA

IM BACK SUCKAS

SUMMER 09 BITCHES

YEEEEYYYYUUHHHH & holy fucking tits i havent written on this for sooo long :/

My Words

My words can determine my character
Tell the world who I am
Sometimes they judge me not on my actions, but what comes out of my mouth

My words can be sharp like a knife
Making those bleed who I feel hurt my pride
Then hurt them right back but I don't realize

My words can be bittersweet
I can turn people at ease
At the same time make them rise up against me

My words can speak love
So divine like the heavens up above
People claim through my words they find God

My words can spew hatred and create enemies
Because sometimes I say things and it has the tendency
To get under people's skin with these words out my lips
Mad because I got a right to my opinion

Words can make you but at the same time break you
So don't take words for granted you gotta be careful
Words can keep you grounded away from the snake's hold
Words can make you abandoned when they make you unfaithful

My words are weapons, my words are relentless
My words are hurtful, My words are truthful
My words are many things, My words are versatile
My words can make you angry, My words can make you smile

So I give you my word, my words are legit
Because this is my word and stand behind it

Actions Speak Louder Than Words.

somebody told me that actions speak louder than words,
and i dont know why that stuck with me until now
u see, i pick on u alot but u dont know how i really feel about u
deep down i care so much about u, like words can`t even describe
i don`t wanna feel this way, i wasnt supposed to but u somehow caught my heart
i didnt know how we even became close, it just happened,
u don`t even realize how much i wanna let out what`s bottled up inside of me
but i`m afraid u wont wanna stay friends with me anymore, that u won`t wanna be real with me, if actions speak louder than words, then how come i tease u more than being someone sweet and someone u can talk to u, how come i cant show u how i really feel about u, i guess my pride is dominant over my sensitivity, we do have our weird random emotional moments but that`s cool, but i rather like the way our friendship is going, i feel so real when im around u, so happy that i saw u, happy whenever u smile at me and say hi,
just happy to even be in your presence, u dont even know every moment with u is just amazing and i cherish those moments, it`ll even be a miracle if u feel the same way about me, but that wont happen cause im so stupid LOL

If You're Not The One - Passion

ZOMG CREAM PARTY IN THE PANTS!

Dr.Dre - Detox
Eminem - Relapse
Methodman and Redman - Blackout 2¸

yep 2009 sounds pretty solid :D

CHEEAA BOIIIII

This Is How We Doooooooo It!

Free Versing It.

so slick when i rhyme, my flow's remarkable
hit me up one time like dope i keep it sparkin yo
im a menace to the industry, they trynna get rid of me
caused my rhymes is so witty, i can start a massacare but my name aint fiddy
i stay fresh like my cousin, yes fresh is my cousin
so yenno ill runs in the family, playing this game like an athlete
and i aint gonna stop, especially when the beat's hot
i aint sign a deal with the devil yet, and i never will
aint too concerned about cheddar i dont care about no major deal
just rapping on these beats alone is a better deal
im so cold, so yenno how them haters feel
flow capable of freezing up the whole damn hemisphere
they say that im gassin, but i tell them that im just rappin
doing what i do, and they cant kill my vibe
to this game i stay true, they just full of lies
so i'll just keep spitting these rhymes, my flow something like a nine
hip-hop is my bonnie, and im it's clyde
it's just me and my shawty and that's till the day i die
so u can take that to the bank, yes this flow is cash
im done spitting this rap, and tell em i said that

Bittersweet.

Bittersweet, you're gonna be the death of me
I dont want you, but I need you,
I love you and I hate you at the very same time

BLAAAZEEE!?!?!??

FAAACK anything to cope =/

Harman Sidhu <3

Harman dawg, I still can't believe this happened, it seemed just like yesterday
that I'd see your friendly smile in the halls and u would say hi to me.I'd go to the front after school and u were always there, it's weird without u there. But now I won't be able to see your face, your smile because you're gone. The most important thing I'm taking out of this is that u can never take anything for granted because u don't know when it's your time. However you're not completely gone, you'll remain in our hearts and you will never EVER be forgotten.

This song's for u bud



RIP Harman 1991-2009

Change.

What's Change?
People talk about change like we need to change this, we need to change that
But who are they to judge?
Trying to make the world a better place
But they're contributing to what's wrong with the world today
They're saying "Yes We Can, Yes We Can"
But when will that "Yes We Can" turn into a "Yes We Will"
Talking about we all need to hold hands in one race under God
But racism and hate are alive and well within their hearts
Criticizing those who are filled with greed, but give a rat's ass about those starving overseas
Superficial at its finest, Yes they define it
They're too blind to see, Their life needs changing
They spot the problems, But don't do a damn thing about it
They keep saying "we'll change", But I haven't seen any change
They speak their minds about how they feel about life
But actions speak louder than words, and quite frankly the way they acting
They're telling me we don't even give a fuck
Hypocrites, Spreading lies, They try to get attention
Unfortunately it works, Because most of us are too blind to see the truth
That we need to change, In order for change to take place too

KRS-ONE Def Poetry

ZOMG KRS-ONE IS SOOO FRESH O.O

what did u do to me?

there's so many things i wanna tell u
but faaaack, i didnt think this whole situation would make us closer
and i damn sure didnt think i would have these feelings for u
i most definitely wasnt prepared for this
this whole thing just doesnt seem right, im tired of keeping it bottled in
but i know if i tell u then u might be scared to be real with me
and i know this doesnt seem like it but i care sooo much about u =/
im tired of being so superficial about it, it seems like i have to hide my real feelings about u
but im a man and as corny as that sounds we're taught to hold it in
so u cant blame me, it's just my nature so once again im sorry
but on the real i dont wanna sound like a dick, but i hate this feeling

Step Brothers - Sweet Child O'Mine

DAYYYYYUUUUUUMMMMMMM

Peace Sign/Index Down

I started rappin back in the class
Scribbling tracks
In hopes that one of my jokes
Would have the pretty young things laughin
The chubby little bastard
With a nack for little debbies snacks
But what I lacked in looks
I made up for it in passion
No advance and plus we make it happen
Your conscience more obnoxious
Then that laughy Taffy snappin
Goodbye yesterdays rags
Hello high fashion
Hands before you's a man
That built a castle with sand
With no regards for tidelwaves
And finally established
Til the water comes in gallon drums
And wipes away my palace
But now I'm sittin lovely off
In wonderland with Alice
With purple people passin me
At the catapillar's chalice
Ha ha, you probably thinking
I'm wrong right?
Like I should quit
Writing these songs right?
Tell you what do it better
I just might
Take it back to 86
You wanna lick, sike!

contemplation....ugh=/

why the hell do i feel this way about u?
at the same time i feel for her
but i dont know what u do to me that just makes my heart skip a beat
why did we have to get close? it's not that i dont want us to be close
because i care about u ,i just dont know how u can make me feel this way
i DONT wanna feel like this about u, it's just not fair for the both of us

NOT lil wayne dickriders

yeah these kids are straight up scrubs and fail at life i know....

funniest day with francis and isaac LOL

k so today, i WAS supposed to play ball with francis
but i came late, so then we went to subway LOL,
and francis mooched cash off me, when he had like 50 bucks in his pocket the whole time
stupid asshole >:( haha, and yeah so we're just chilling there for iunno a long assed time
then crash and burn was on the radio and we start singing on the top of our lungs
haha then me and francis make up our own trapped in the closet joint lol
LOL maury "u are not the father, father, father...."
now fast forward, we meet up with isaac, and we were supposed to play ball
AGAIN but the tickets were sold out, so we went swimming and isaac smacked some old brown guys ass cause he thought it was ariel haha STUPID!BAHAHAHA im still laughing about it right now LMFAOO BAHAHAHAHA

my convo with bffl ;)

josheeeeeezy says:
lol
josheeeeeezy says:
you like her
matt is like says:
haha no
matt is like says:
we're like me and u
matt is like says:
except you'd be a girl
matt is like says:
and more attractive no homo
josheeeeeezy says:
lol
josheeeeeezy says:
lol
josheeeeeezy says:
lol


HAHAHA love u brahh no homo

New single soon

yeah so since it's almost spring break, imma be free well not entirely lol
but im gonna record "Somebody Like You" with Aj Torres
yes with Aj now because somethings just dont work out as planned
so i'll post that shit on here once i get err done

YES MAN!

Kid Cudi is freeesh!

Runaway Love - my take on it

chorus:
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love

verse 1:
see i know this one girl
she was lonely in this cold cold world
momma misunderstood, and her junkie daddy always beat her
wasn't the popularist kid in school, her peers would always tease her
so she done met this one dude
manipulating say i love u
he introduced her to weed
then got her doing up lines within a week
too late to go back, she was addicted to crack
no way to pay him back, cause she aint got no cash
took her to the nearest street corner
and he told her to wait for somebody
and said bitch u better get my money
she was a runaway love

chorus:
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love

verse 2:
so she sleeping with unkown dudes
worse than the abuse she been through
kept bringin home big money
but never seemed enough for her pimp
sometimes he'd put his hands on her
told her not to say another word
she done cried silently but what was it worth
she's asking herself why
she done gave into his lies
if she done stayed in her own life
because compared to this it seemed fine
nightmares to reality, wishing this was all but a dream
now she just found out she got infected with hiv
she's a runaway love


chorus:
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love

verse 3:
yeah so this story only goes from bad to worse
just found out that she's 3 months pregnant
now she's about to bring another life in the world
but how can she support it
the offspring's gonna have to join the fam business
and it can inherit momma's disease
afraid to tell her pimp because how will he react
about give birth to a crack baby
hoping that one day maybe, she can get the f**k out this life
live her's to the fullest, instead of this bullsh*t
the way it should of been, but because of poor decisions
she cant start from scratch, so this is her life now
and it's hard to get it back
yes she's a runaway love

chorus:
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love

Spring Break

Please spring break come already, school's pissing me the FAAACK off =/

fuck my life

i need a vacation =/

Testify

i gotta testify, before i got with christ
i was living a lie, smoking weed through them hard times
egotistical, thought i was ready to die,
acting superficial, cause i had to hide my pain through my pride
but when christ did my life, he broke my heart and he made me cry
then he wept my tears, told me everything will be allright
now i lay down everything i have before the king
cause if it wasnt for him i wouldnt have no life to lead
or every single breath i breathe,it`s a trip how he gave
himself up took our punishment, he could of spared his own life and live to fight another day
so it`s him who im bussing this for, seasons may change and i will age
but the uncoditional love that he has for me will remain the same
so for that imma give his praise, and say nothing but beautiful things about his name
u can hear me holla hallelujah, every sunday
morning, so i will testify for christ and not for me

The Industry - DMX

AMEN DMX AMEN,
RIP the industry

Time to man up

i think it's time to man the freak up! i'm tired of getting tongue tied around u
not being able to say shit when u come around, gahhh why is this so hard? =/

i wanna flyyy

wish that i could buy me a spaceship and fly past the skyyyy

Just a spontaneous blog

BOOO NIGGA!

Blogging out of Boredom

Yeah so it's about 12 at night and I'm bored so I'll write a random blog
Today was normal. wake up, school, cotillion practice, dinner, homework, and now im talking to Josh and Denisse who has no friends. JK JK

If you're reading this congrats, you've just wasted 10 minutes of your life

Silenced by Beauty

I try to talk to you
But when I open my mouth no words come out
Is it your eyes that just blindside me?
Or your smile that can melt down the hottest place on earth?
When you walk in the room I feel weak
As if a big weight has been placed on my shoulders
And there's no way I can remove it off me no matter how hard I try
But at the same time this feeling, well I've never felt so alive
Yes this feeling that I'm feeling is rather bittersweet
One minute I don't want to feel this, but the other minute I need another dose
You took away my ability to speak, the ability to function
You're on my mind, messing with my thoughts, messing with almost anything you can get your hands on
And the messed up part is you doesn't know what you're doing to me
You silence me without saying a word, or even provoking me
Just your appearance alone is enough for me to shut up

I'm such an idiot

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Fed up

Lately I've been fed up with alot of things
Fed up with having that empty feeling
Fed up with having to look over my shoulders
Fed up with trying to force myself it'll only get better when it won't
Fed up with these eternal battles that I keep fighting with myself knowing I won't win
Fed up with all the bullshit I have to put up with everyday
Just fed up in general

PS: I'm not emo, I'm just getting somethings off my chest haha

Sick and Tired - Shihan

LOL the truth

.

i just wanna be close

Dictatorship.

What is a dictatorship?
Most people relate dictatorship to politics
The first thing that pops to their minds are cats like Hitler and Stalin

But it doesn't only apply to politics
It's a system where a group of people tell u to act a certain way
Dress a certain way, Look a certain way, Talk a certain way, Do your a hair a certain way
A system where you can't express yourself, you express them so you're seen as fake

It's a system where they excpect u to drop everything to fit their wants and needs
Not anything that'll benefit you in any way

A dictatorship doesn't only apply to politics
It applies to any place, any organization
Where people don't have the right to be free
Stripped of their rights to be themselves
So it's safe to say they're trapped in the belly of hell
They can't make bail whatsoever
Hell is a place called home for them forever

Dicatators you know who you are
Don't even try to front that you're nice
Don't try to act like you're democratic
When in fact you're a dictator

SAAP GUYS!?!

Wu-Tang Clan aint nothing to fuck with!